S.S.D.D.

I really wish this was a lot simpler than it is. I've got so much on my mind right now, and this whole apartment thing is taking the forefront. On the one hand: I like living in an apartment, hate living in the dorms, I feel like I have a good thing going here, Matt and Johnny really kinda need me to stick around to help pay rent, and they're counting on it. On the other hand: my mom thinks I should move into the dorms, my girlfriend's dad thinks I should move into the dorms, I'm unemployed right now, and I owe Matt a good deal of money right now. I'll owe Matt money whatever I do, and I could handle the money stuff. It's just that my mom really thinks I need to go back to the dorms. I hate that everybody is expecting everything from me, and I wish that I could just make it stop.

And the other thing on my mind is the fact that I haven't been able to talk to Kate for more than fifteen minutes at a time. It's driving me crazy, and I'm starting to think that maybe it's not just coincidence or unintentional. I understand some of her dad's issues, but he's not very consistent. Telling me it's my responsibility to take care of my mom, who is already taken care of, but at the same time threatening to charge his own daughter rent? Where the Hell does that add up? It's not like my being home and working a dead end job is going to help my mom any. And what if I do drop out of college (which would be going against my dad's wishes, by the way), and he finds some other problem with me? What if there's a deeper root than just the fact that I'm not supporting my mom? What then?

Right now, I need to be able to focus on my school and getting the bills paid, but at the same time, I have to fight tooth and nail to prove that I deserve to be dating his daughter. I'll fight, because she's worth that much, but some days it feels like a losing battle, and I just want it to end. But I can't. I can't do that to her. She's counting on me to see this thing through, and I refuse to let her down.

Well, I guess that's enough of my whining and moaning and self pity. Somebody call me the whaaaaambulence.

Adventures in Laundry and Technology

Last night I tried something that seemed neat: SMS blogging. Unfortunately it didn't work out so well, and the formatting was weird. Not to mention that the text itself wasn't translated properly, leading to a string of jumbled text. Oh well. On to more productive things.

At the moment I'm at a laundromat. I don't think I've ever been able to fit all my clothes into one washer before. Cost me 3.50 plus another .75 for the detergent, and I still have to use the dryer. Should've taken Johnny's advice and snuck onto a Nejam complex and used their laundry rooms... Meh, you live you learn. Shouldn't need to do laundry again before the 20th, and probably not until after. So not looking forward to the fight for laundry machines :|

So that's .25 for the dryer. So it comes out to 3.75 for the wash and dry and .75 for the detergent, adding up to 4.50 :/ But I still have some money to grab food if I get hungry at a later point, which is good.

At the moment, I'm hoping for an extra $450 by the beginning of October. Be nice to surprise Kate, especially since the day fall break starts, she has an endurance race. Be really cool to just show up at the finish line waiting for her.

Well, my laundry is done, so I have to go. I need a catch phrase to end these with, now. Hmm...

The way things are

So things are taking a turn for the interesting. Living in an apartment for the time being, which costs almost $1K in rent alone. Don't have a job as of yet, but had a promising interview that I'm optimistic about. We'll see where it goes.
My mom thinks it's best if I go back to the dorms this semester, so that's what I'm gonna do(Sorry, Matt, if this is how you're finding out. I obviously forgot to tell you). It sucks, but that's the way the dice roll. Maybe we'll try again next semester, if Matt isn't too pissed at me.
I'm getting back into writing after a summer of writer's block, and it's going pretty well. Though my characters tend to get out of hand sometimes O.O One of them has developed a pretty dirty mouth, a taste for alcohol, and a penchant for violence.
I should try writing a song or two. Not quite sure how to go about this, but I'm gonna take a stab at it. Maybe I'll learn something. Who knows? Well, this is all for now. See you all next time